Lonely

I don't know why but all I want to do is crawl into bed and lay as close as possible to my husband but yet at the same time I don't. I feel so rejected lately and I know it's not his fault. His job is making him work these really long awful hours because other people call out so guess who has to work!? It's bullshit. Why do they punish the only person willing to work? They don't realize that it hurts his family life in a way that will never be expressed to him. I can never tell him how I feel because I know that it will only make him feel more guilty than he already does. Oh well keep the brave face on and keep trudging. I have to do what helps him the most.